So, a lot has been going on. As you know, Internet, I am in college; the end of the semester got very hectic, but it's over now. Thank goodness.
In other news, Fionn has unfriended me on Facebook. I knew that day would come eventually, but in the back of my mind, I there was always still a thread of hope that as long as there was some kind of tie together, then maybe someday he'd want to get in touch and give what we had together another try. Now it's just clear to me that he really doesn't want anything to do with me at all, anymore. He's so beyond over it (and over me) that he no longer wants me to be in any part of his life. I know, I know...it's fucking Facebook. But still. When I saw that he had severed that connection, weak though it was, it was like all the pieces of my heart were breaking again.
And it feels as though my life as a spinster is now pretty much set in stone. I've been keeping busy with reading and video games to distract myself from wallowing, but mixed in with all the sadness is a feeling of being resigned. I'm resigned to the single life, and becoming more and more comfortable as a recluse. That's probably not healthy, but I don't much care.
Anyway, I know I am pretty behind with the whole daily bible thing I wanted to try and keep up with. So here... 36 Genesis: Esau's Descendants: This is nothing more than a breakdown of all the many sons of Esau (Edom). There are a whole hell of a lot of them, since if you recall, God keeps promising millions of kids to everyone. 37 Genesis: The Rulers of Edom is pretty much the same thing, except it's a breakdown of the chiefs of each clan or whatever coming from Esau/Edom. There's someone in here named Beor, which I found amusing because I just finished re-reading The Hobbit not long ago, and there is a character in that book named Beorn, and he is a total badass.
